Symphony

Wow, I'm back, last entry was back in June, Well the summer of 2008 flew really fast, a little fast. This year for my birthday I went to hawaii to visit my sister sandra. I came back on nov and just worked a few days I met this girl name lisbet, we hung out only one night and she said I was too damn picky, and that she hated salvadoreans, so it was a big,wtf?! Well at the same time I was talking to Marisol, good is beautiful. She would call me blocked and I was like, what's the point? Lol. Well I thought it wasn't fair that she had my number but I didn't. Well I met her on Dec. 17th I believe, I was at church that night, i befriended the youth and they invited me to hang out with them after the church gathering was over, at this point I had been texting with marisol non stop. At. The end of the night I asked her what she was doing, and she said she was returning back home from her sisters house, and she gladly said she would drive back. I staid with max till she got back, and we chatted, when marisol arrived I drove to the carls jr. I was a bit nervous to meet her, and when I saw her, she was so beautiful, she looked like this lost child that I took into my arms. The evening was cold and she was shivering, I tried to warm her as much as I could have. I wrapped my arms around her mid body section, she liked that. I lowered my hands to her butt, that is her weakness, at least with me haha.

Well marisol and I met up 2 more days after that night. On the last night we kissed as I said my goodbyes; I was flying to hawaii that day. My sister in law dropped me off at the Flyaway bus shuttle on Dec 30th 2008, I arrived in. Hawaii again in the evening. I spent new years eve 09 in Hawaii.

Well Jan has passed On. The 8th I asked Marisol to be my gf. But that's to have a date, to me it was Dec 17 the night I met her. We have had road bumps along the way. She went threw a Temp Coma, my feelings and concirne for her come out when she was in that state.

Now its Feb and I've lost around 20lbs. A new month, still jobless, but don't know were to look. Well ill keep writing more entries again.

Well wow, its been a full month since I've posted on here. alright friends catching up tp do.

so may has flown by. all the months are doing so. last month was nothing special, I believe I dropped out of the semester in Man, though I kept my piano class. wow another fucken failed semester. shit.

I got blonde highlights on my hair in april and a fresh cut, but I'm due for a fresh cut again. my hair has 7 months of re growing since I completely cut it short back in Nov 2007.

I've been working at Famima!! for 6 months now, half a year it would seem. and I've gotten a Key to the store which means I can close now! with another associate. our store reseaved alcohol so that's kind of messing up our hours, I don't want to explain. there have been 3 new employees, Sean he's a good guy we became good friends, but he's a morning shift so I never really see him. Ming the ex manager from Famima!! Hollywood, he's your average homosexual. with a lot of love to give.

I've been working 90 percent with my manager and he seems to like me very much, I've grown to like him as well. he's a good man. but also needs help running the store.

playing piano has turned for the better I'm learning a lot now. just the other day I was at guitar center and some black guy was playing and I really liked his chord choices, basically smooth jazz chords. and I asked him how did he learn, or what Key he played in. he showed me some chord fingering tricks and then we jammed out at Guitar Center haha.

I was playing the Bass on the keyboard, we had a drum machine playing and he was playing a "Cool Galaxy" effect on the keyboard. Man ill tell you I had so much fun, I want to be in a band soooo bad.

I hung out with my friend victor from highschool it was fun, hadent seen him in 2 years. he really had fun hanging out. its been a long time. and we caught up on stuff. he is still playing guitar and he is improving and is better than me on it. even though he claims to not know as much as I do. He has realized that he must learn music theory to better understand the instrument, so I have him a few lessons. and he is really interested, back in highschool he also saw music theory as a held back from playing. but now he's always asking me what this and that is.

also, miss you guys at EMC. I Will stop by on friday night. have a good night.

-Lucas

well. its been a while since I've been on this thing. in the month of march, my nephew and I waited anxiestly for Super Smash Bros. Brawl's realse, and they day finally came. we were smashing till 4am. and to this day, we are still smashing. so that was basically the month of march, aside from me trying to take my ex out to dinner was a total failure. in the month of April it was my nieces birthday. I had to work that night, so I only spent about 20 minutes of her birthday party. its alright I bought her 3 hello kitty "milks" and she only drank the strawberry one. april flew by, nothing interesting happend.

wow the days are really flying now =(. I still remember posting the first journal entry on jan 1st/2nd. and now its May 7th. I don't always think of this but tonight I am; this month would have been 8 months if my ex gf and I were still going. =/ I have 5 months working at Famima now. and I'm getting really close to most of my coworkers. I always feel like I brought life to that place. a lot of our customers enjoy the evening shift than the morning. I mean the manager isn't there in the evening so its a lot more chiller. the morning is just fast food, no customers chat or anything everything is just, pick up and jam.

last night I hung out with my coworker Krystle. we played rockband at her house. she was on drums and I was on guitar. then we switched then I was singing and she was on drums. haha :] we went to go have dinner at sizzlers. ugh, the ribbs there were complete garbitch! then we just played some real guitar.

if only she didn't have a bf, I would have massaged her, and make her feel comfortable with me. (-_-')

well today I was completely bored I did nothing, I didn't study or anything. I went to go buy Sonic CD and Sol Feace for the SEGA CD and that shit was awesome. =)

well ima go to bed now.

well its leap day or whatever. its my nephews 16th birthday I believe. haha. God I love my nephew, I basically grew up with that little chimpy, he is my True best friend in this world, he has my back and I have his. if he didn't exsist, I'd be soo lonely in this world, after the death of my mother, he brought a smile back on my face. his company is always welcome. I love living with him, I love seeing him come from school, or picking him up when ever I feel like it, haha.

ill say it again, we grew up together, when we didn't live together always went to go visit him, and watch tv, and play super nintendo. when he moved in with us, we started playing pokemon and shit haha. he's like my little sidekick. he's growing bigger physcally and mentally. he's not a little kid anymore. but he is black!!!! =D. we would have soo many late convos "lets talk about sharlene" haha that was funny. oh man, smashing it up is a must with my little chimpy, that's what brings us together. sure the little bastard doesn't call me Uncle Lucas, but that's how he grew up by just calling me lucas. it buggs me that none of my nephews call me uncle but fuck it, that's why I don't give them shit >=]

so Happy birthday chimpy this day belongs to you.

p.s. surprise!!!

so tonight I picked up my friend Krishna. after that we picked up her friend Lara. it was our friend Andrew's birthday, he said it was going to be at Dave and Busters in Irvine, fair enough, but what we three didn't know was that he changed the location to the dave and busters in Orange at THE BLOCK, so Krishna, Lara and I decided that we were just ganna walk around the location we were at. we didn't see andrew, and we felt sorry for him, but there were many reasons why we didn't just drive the 14 miles to the block. I had a really great night tonight, ill admit it sucked that I had to drive all the way down there only to return back to culver city 1 hour later. but I had fun with krishna and lara.

krishna farted in my car!!!! sick I think it smelled worse than my nephews farts. so I closed the windows and put the heater on haha.

after dropping lara home, I headed towards krishnas house, but she said she had to go to a friends house cause she promised him shed be there for his bday party.

payam called me and told me to come to famima, it was such a dead evening tonight. I felt sorry, but I get those evenings sometimes too. oh I also went to get my hair trim and layered =) yes! haha.

I have a new friend yay! =] well its 2am I'm ganna k.o now.

until tomorrow.
-lucas.

Its been a while since ive posted anything on this journal. for the past weeks ive just been working at Famima!! its a decent job, ive met some nice customers and some which ive become friends with. I love closing with my co worker Payam, we have develope a "close" friendship. He's always asking me what song from which game it is(I play video game music at work). there is this cute chick name Krishna, she saw my electric and acoustic guitars in my trunk and asked me if i was any good, haha. I told her, im still learning, which is true, you never stop learning. she asked me if i play bass, and i told her i do. we drove around culver city and West L.A for hours. with some other friends just hang out. the party we were heading to was cancelled since someone broke something =/ it looked like a nice kickback with hot chicks =)

i talked to my ex, last week. i told her if she still felt for me, and she replied saying "ugh.. no, to be honest i forgot about you, i dont see you that way anymore" hmmmm ok. fair enough, but damn for her to just say she forgot about me, but still willing to be friends seems far beyond odd. i told her why she forgot about me in less than a month. and already feeling for her co worker (Sean). she said "well if someone didnt appreciate your efforts, wouldnt you get over them?" hmmm well i did, but her "efforts" were worthless, nothing changed, and her Anemiea got worse, so up with her "efforts" well, it was nothing once she told me these things, i felt as like ok, whatever. hanging out with people is just what i need. i start school tomorrow (again, haha i dropped out of Los Angeles Valley College)I havent been in a class with jose in exactly one year. wow. We took Geology 101 last year to this exact date, and now were taking Philosopy. its going to be a year since i was in Piano II class, and now im doing Piano III, if only i never dropped out of the fall semester man fucking ex gf, had to always be on my mind >=/.

i should be in Piano Workshop (IV). What a dissapointment i should also be in Musicianship II and Harmony II. what a load a whole year just gone right there.

i want to go talk to my Musicianship Teacher, shes really nice, i love her as a teacher. shes stricked yet flexible.

she knew i could pass the class, but i was going through a lot of stupid shit in the fall (pregnancy scare). I best just stick to my studies and work now.

i really need to start playing piano again, i was surprised i was able to read music still, it was a bit difficult but i handled.

theres a lot of people i havent seen in the longest of times. all my friends from EMC, i havent seen you guys in a month to two months. i miss a lot of my High School Friends, everyone went their seperate ways. i wonder how everyone is doing. since i deleted my Old Myspace account, i lost a lot of old and new friends. wow, so many people i lost.

i met and lost a lot of people old and new friends. first relationship, it was such a beatiful relationship in the beginning, it seemed as it was her and I against the world. standing by each others sides. but as time progressed we turned our backs against each other. it seems this "love" wasnt the true one. i still wish for her the best to come, she may say she forgot about me this past month, but i never really did, she still arose on my mind, and i always wish the best for her. no i dont WISH i PRAY!

March 9th will be the day all notions of sense and thought wont matter, for Super Smash Bros. Brawl is released here in America, man that sunday is going to be Awesome!!!!! cant wait to pwn and get pwn haha.

well its 3am im going to head upstairs and go to bed.

goodnight.

So today I arrived to work around 5 to get my paycheck. I scored 461 bucks. I punched in and just fried some foods the Hirano came and said that I'm not being paid, that I can't punch in early. I was like wtf?

So I punched out and my shift didn't start till 7. I was 2 hours early, well I just sat there and chatted with the homies. Payam didn't get promoted to Team Leader. Hirano said he doesn't really trust him since he saw that we don't trought the tips in the safe.

That really broke him down and made his day a buzz. Around closing time he just told me "fuck famima!!" even though an hour before he said I loves this company. Man it sadden me to see my homie like that. He's a chill dude. Really needs to stop on the smoking. Its alittle to much and it will kill him one day. It seems that he's getting worse, he coughs really harshly.

Well we hung out with some homies from california pizza kitchen outside for a while. Then went and closed the store, tonight was really chill, this job is fun. Only with payam by the way.

I had a great evening.

Work, work work. Wow I worked 7 days a week, I called my ex last night, and she told me she's going down a bad pathway, apperantly she smoked weed again. After she told me that. I just said goodbye. I hung up. She didn't at all seemed affected or cared. My dad was telling me that people go down certain pathways not because of causes, but because they like doing it. I can say I agree with him completely.

Well today I covered shifts for a co worker, she had an abortion on thursday, and she's still with her boyfriend, wow, its kinda "cool" that we can just delete files we don't want huh? Just amazing.

I'm freakin' bored of the piano, I just sat down on it, and just played the same crap I always do, I'm freain bored. I'm not finding it fun anymore, I'm looing interest in a lot of things, I don't want to be in this state of taste. Life is just passing me by, I just sleep eat and go to work now, I miss being in school. Why did I have to go and drop out?, I miss sitting in a class room where knowledge is being throughn at me.

I miss being in a music class, I can't believe I screwed up the fall semester so misserably, Mrs. Plueger is probably wondering what's wrong with me, she even told me to tell her, if she can do anything to help me, she knew I had person issues going on. I did so well in her Music 102 class, and I'm sure I left her in though as to why I was failing this new course, she said "I know you know this stuff lucas, but there is something that is distracting you, and I can also tell you have a problem on you at the moment." I'm sorry Mrs Plueger, but I'm not returning to Glendale College ='(. One person I want to see is merieam, she is this christian girl I met in my Music 102 class, I liked her the min. I saw her last year. She's pretty and knows and stands for what she believes in, she's a New Jersey kid haha, she moved to L.A. 4 years ago. I haven't seen her since Oct. 2007. I wanna grab something to eat with her, but I'm not returning to Glendale College, and I never asked her for her number ='( all is lost.

Today at work was alright, Taka and myself clossed tonight. I stuffed myself a little too much on my lunch break haha. Just attended customers, and chilled. Now I'm home writing this Lj, nobody is responding or online for that matter.

That's it for tonight/today.

So I work at famima!! Now in Culver city. Its an ok job. Been there 3 days now, and its pretty cool. I've messed up a couple of times on certain things. Over all its aite.

Its pretty cool were this famima!! Is located, a lot of ppl come in, sometimes familiar faces. everyone from the other stores get discounts like the people from ebgames, cpk:asap, and bally total fitness.

I asked one of the employees from gamestop if I get discount and he said yeah haha=)

There's cute babes that come in, bums, bumettes, ugly farts and the like haha.

Well today was ok, woke up around 12 the usual. Got up ate breakfast, then just staid here, went for a walk to the bank around 6pm, came back and just sat here, jennifer from famima called me and I have orientation today(friday), now I'm talking to my friend jose, its 4am friday jan 4th, and I'm just thinking how this june will be 2 years since we graduated from high school, 2 years since a lot of stuff. Its kinda depressing in a way to think, I got lectured today on school and work, and no matter how mad I get, and try to over come them, my family has a point, shit 2 years already since the end of highschool. I'm here in the couch just thinking, and I'm listening to the song that is played in the Space Junk Galaxy on super mario galaxy, shit its depressing, it just makes me think about what's out there, I want to listen to this song and sail across the stars, look at the galaxies, and look down at earth, I just want to fly out of this planet. I miss you mother.

This song is just to much to listen to when feeling down, I still love it no matter what.

Man there are just soooo many memories flying threw my head right now, I changed the song I'm now listening to "I've seen all good people" by Yes.

I feel like taking a drive right now, but I must perserve my gas. I want to drive with someone close to me, I want to just drive with you and explore this world. Lets see what's out there.

Second day of 2008, not much happening right now, just not sleeping as usual, I'm afraid, school starts next monday and I yet to breaj the habbit of waking up around 1pm, I'm afraid I'm going to fail in school and in my next job, just as I was getting close to the people at hollister I'm endind that work, this sucks. Yesterday I picked up my sister from the airport, I'm glad she's visiting I missed her. Well I'm trying my best to just empty my mind, I want to make sure "she's" ok. I want to call her, but no, its best if I don't. I just need to go back in school, play the playa card, and just go out. I'm always home and I feel like a bird in a bird cage. Well I learned "comet observatory" from the Super Mario Galaxy OST on piano. Well I guess ill close my eyes now. Good night.

lets start on Dec 31st, well i got home from work around 6am, after leaving a co-worker at her place. I went to sleep and woke up around 1pm, man i hate doing that. after that just washed clothes. and then showered and headed out to church for a new years party, it was all alright. but once that clock struck midnight, i broke out in tears. I miss my mother. But thats not why i cried. When Pastor Sanchez said, "gather around, grab your wife, GIRLFRIEND/bf, mom or dad. and i saw my brother kiss my sister in law. i just couldnt hold it anymore. i still miss "her" on not complete over "her". it was saddening, not to have someone to hold, someone as in a partner, i had my dad and sister etc... but i missed that bond. i wish i could have her by my side right now. just having her tell me that she loves me. and me to her. I was about to call her, but that would just be giving in to my weakness. I didnt want to be at church after that so i came home, my cousin from el salvador is visiting and he broke out in tears too, his dad died in a car accident just like my mother, but one year earlier.

we didnt want to be there any longer, the rest of our family is sleeping in the streets of Pasadena trying to get good seats for the Rose Parade, but im not interested in that shit. My mother always wanted to see that shit live, so whats the point of going, "do it for you mom"? no, there is no point. shes not here anymore. so there serves no purpose.

My sister jessica comes today around 9pm i want to pick her up from the Airport. i miss her al lot, i grew really close to her last year once we moved in with her. It was like old times, while she was in High School and i was in Elementary.

its 3:30 right now
dont want to sleep dont want to do shit. its 2008, the days fly by like nothing now, everything just seems like "a day". sun rises and sets. I want to just go to the Beach and sit there with someone. if anyone wants to go let me know =).

everyone at church was saying outloud "thank you god, for not letting my son die in that gun fire" "thank you for letting me..."etc, i felt like just standing up and saying "well you may all thank him. but not everyone gets out alive you know, some survive but have to live with burned images of their loved ones demises" but thats just because of my pain.

I havent really "Touched" my piano in a good while. i have played it, But havent sat down and actually practice anything. I feel that just slipping away, out of reach. I look at it and i dont find it interesting anymore. I hate feeling like this. i have been feeling Melancholy for a good while now.

I love my family, and i love my nephew luis, without him i would be in complete depression, i have him to make my smile, laugh and occasionaly....fart haha. I enjoy doing things with my nephew, though he might be a bitch sometimes i still love him.

i guess ill sleep, i dont know if i am.

Today I woke up pretty early than normal. I woke up at 10am, because I was sleeping on the couch, and the noise of my nephews and neice disturbed me. Well I got up had breakfast, and went to go wake chimpy up. He was being a bitch as usual, when it comes to waking up. Eventually I left him alone and I fell asleep myself on my bed haha, and woke up around 2pm.

I got up, showered and headed out to hollister, I got my paycheck, I received 295.69 dollars this time, that's a lot for me haha, to have earned almost 300 dollars. =)

After that I headed to the Venzores house. And I just rested on my friend david's bed. Dehlia walked in to play WoW on the computer, but I think the internet wasn't connected, then I tried to get on it and felt stupid haha.

At youth group we talked about the year 2007 and yeah it was pretty chill, after I hung out with "mcqueen" haha at his house played rock band and then headed out to ihop, man I'm stuffed.

these past 3 months were ok, yet stupid shit happend.
I dropped out of the school semester due personal issues.
I wish i didnt take this semester so chill.
i was failing up to 6 weeks in.

I was taking a Musicianship class were it was all about Being a Composer and a Harmony class, to learn all the chord structures and the like.

i liked those classes but it got really complex.
now i miss being in a Music class.
i pretty much just set myself back a year from transfering by dropping. =(

im returning but ill be working too so ill have less classes now.
driving is such an economic drain.
i feel like buying bus passes again.

i havent sat at my piano(well its not even set up) in a month. and now i find myself lost at the pressence of the black and white keys. i look at my hands and wonder, what the hell? actually my piano is right next to me, leaning against the wall.

i need to get my head together and wake up early not the usual 1pm. wow i waste half the day right there.

i didnt even learn any christmas songs.
i yet to perform a piece for anyone, or the church. im just not feeling that vibe.

been pretty emo for a week, but its changing due to something i read from someone.

Orchestration, wow, its just...... too many instruments to know about! everything is so different. I know though that the reward is great from studing.

Well i guess i can say im in a band with my friend Daniel, i play guitar in this ensemble. =) i came up with a decent 4/4 time riff. i tried to add daniels lyrics to the guitar, its pretty hard for me, but the sound of my voice, and the sound of the strings is just magnificent. though the catagory is "emo" its still nice, i love playing in minor modes. i feel its the most strongest form in music. Its darker, but knowing how to perform Modulation is a key to a great song as well.

well im going to get off my brothers laptop now, im never on this thing so yeah. haha.

OMG!!!!


NO!!!!!!!

its stupid to see,

but i dont get it. is it suppose to be erotic? idk about anyone out there but im not at all turned on by 2 girls eating their own ***** and *****. its like... when did that become natural?

whats next? 2 guys one dish?

2 girls on dog?

stupid....

yet its stupid of myself to have seen it. bleh.

Oh wow. its like 12pm. bearly getting up.
so i look outside the window and its soooooo "Gusty Gardens"

my nephew "chimpy" just popped his head infront of mine, and yes, he got his Daddy yankee hair cut again. Congrats on that Shitz

i mean man, its mad Daddy Yankee. =)

well just "zapped" it up with chimpy, Played some Resident Evil: UC.

Now im writing this LJ, and maybe will play some Ghost Squad. I still have to go to the Mall...............................................to charge my phone. xD

Ok so today i didnt want to be at my house. so i took the longest shower on earth. then headed to my cousins house here in La Puente. nothing was open so it was hard to find a place to eat. But Carl's jr was open so we went there.

i sat on the couch for like 6 hours doing nothing man the day just ended so stupid.
i called dehlia, but i dont know. something seemed weird. maybe the fact that i never call YOU haha. or i was just a boring bastard. xD

anyways after that i started talking to my friend Stacey for a good 2 hours. It was fun. then around 1am i started talking to my friend Daniel. just about things with his life, and my own.

i think instead of thinking "i have my own shit" how about comparing bout our "shits" and making one big pile? haha. help one another.

so i came out with a decent guitar riff and daniel gave me some of his lyrics. I tried to sing with my playing and i think it turned out nicely.

now its 3am and i feel like just taking a drive. like i dont care were i end up. well sort of because i want to return haha.

well im going to get off the computer now and maybe write another entry on my sidekick.

Well its 12:16pm and I'm bearly getting up. My nephew and I were up till 4am trying to find a mouse we found in our house. That little bish booked it as soon as it saw us.

We couldn't find that mouse, so we just cover a vent in the chimminy. We ate some chicken nuggets, drank some kola shampagen (lol). Watched some "Angry Videogame Nerd" then hit the sack.

Not much going on this morning, I wasn't home last night to see anyone open their presents, but neither was my sister in law.

Well there's not much else going on today I think. I'm still laying in bed, not wanting to get up.

I worked from 6 to 10pm today (24th). Everyone was talking on getting drunk and stuff, I would have joined them just to mess around the drunk people haha, but I'd rather be with my family.

Ish got a cell phone, that was sick wierd. I called him and we were on the line for an hour. Damn. That's the first time I talk to him on the phone.

Well my nephew and I were watching tv, when I noticed something moving, I thought it was a wire, but it was a freakin mouse. Man that asshole scared the crap out of me.

Ugh I'm really tired finish this in the aftermorning.